Now What?

OK Eric!
Yes him again!

I talked to Anthony last night and Eric was brought up
I said before we hooked up Eric was going around saying that I was supposed to be in love with him....like what???? What would make him think that shit?????
I swear i never did anything to even show how I felt for him.
&& if he does think that then he really must not care about me at all because he went around spreading the word

but I'm finally over him
I had plans on hooking up with him for one last time on Halloween but I guess I wont do that anymore.
Tho I really really want to
but I just gotta move on
Imma still fuck him up tho

Quiz

When you read this you should start from the beginning or you will never know what the fuck im talking about

I need a boyfriend somebody i can love, care about and hold in my arms.
I just need a dream
please.

Where have I been?
School.
Its very stressfull too

Eric
Come on you know you wanna know
He's really pissing me off!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKER

I have tons of homework
but im blogging

Anthony
Still my friend

Happy
Happy belated Birthday

Prince
Where the fuck are you
Can you buy me something?? :_)

I need a new life.
Where did mines go?

Friends wouldnt hurt either

My Friend Says He Knows you Well

Well.

hi.

i'm back.

please accept me back.

ok.

now....

Eric told Anthony && the rest of his friends.

Suckx right?

I'm mad but at the same time im amused. He is really acting like some little boy.

Does he feel accomplished?

So I'm like denying this shit to the end. Like really. How could I ever admit to it.

So i was sitting in the car with Anthony one late night & we were talking about the whole situation. Happy drove down the block. He didnt see us.

Then Eric drove past nodding looking in the car.

Im like OMG! I hate him.

What happened never happened. Well as far as im concerned.

I dont regret it. It was well planned but I will beat his ass for telling.

So anywayz Friday the 13th i put a hex on him lol well at least i tried to

then the next day Anthony told me he say him and he brung it up and thats allllllll he was talking about....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

well i broke up with Prince....long story

he fell in love......short story

ummmmm

I gots me a job!! lol

ummmm

new boys new problems..

im doing a cleanse..

Would he care if 'she' was a prostitute...

Did i lose sleep?? naaaa

Kudos to Lil Wayne ;)

14!

Last Blog it was 10 guys.....now its like 14!!!!! LOL

Watever...its fun! I love action and attention! :)

IMMA STAR!!!

But Prince did get mad at me tho....and Anthony called me private and left a voicemail like "Brooke WHAT YOU ON HAHA"

I wish I would have answered bcus believe it or not I'm starting to MISS HIM!!!

I'm going to call Happy tomorrow!!

Quick Run Down...!

Ok,
remember the nightmare I had about my cousin hooking up with the guy I liked....totally came true
I'm sooo psyic...but i cant spell lol
&& my spell checks not working

ummmmm, Oh yea ERIC
um well Anthony told me that Eric had texed him like

why shorty text me at 2 in the morning

I guess he thought that was an open invite...but sooo not!

i mean I would love to hang out with him...but hook up??? umm not sure.

STOP BRAGGING!


hummmm...

i heart Eric

but im slowly losing interest...so cool!! finally the curse is leaving!! :)

I need rehab!!

Babble Jabble!

OOOOOOOOOOOOkkkkkkk....
Why did Eric tell Anthony I texted him back that night.
I only asked him if he called me...and he said yea he wanted to see if I was coming outside

Now Anthony hates me...be I honestly dont car as much bcus he always brings pettyness into my life.
Now i'm pissed at Eric....Why brag about it???

I really wish they would all just grow up && live their live outside of their phonebook!

kudos to Whitney!

So now its like...WHATEVER!

I cant catch a break really....so now if I do like hangout with Eric...im gonna make him feel guilty for everything... :)

THAT GOOD!

ok i started to get REAALLLLY irrataed with Prince, even before Anthony filled my head up with all his crazy talk. I mean he was right though...saying that Prince was gonna start pressuring me to have sex with him but i dont know. I think its the whole thing that I dont wanna lose my virginity to him. So I stop talking to him as much but I miss him now.



Sooooo Eric and Happy is like competing now to like be with me. Well at least hook up.

As much as I like Eric...Love Eric...I feel bad really. bcus he only wants to hook up && i want more.



He even called me last night to see if I was coming out!! AHHH! OHH EMMM GEEE!

Buts its making me think differently of him. He broke up with his girl AGAIN last night. but anywayz....



Lester, some fat guy told Happy and Eric that i was having sex so Happy was telling Eric about it. Happy was saying like I been dating her for almost 2 years, she need to stop playing and hook up. But the whole time Eric was thinking in his mind that he cant go and he gotta hook up with me first! DRAMATIC! Kay!



What is a girl suppose to do. I'm like inlove with Eric && i wonder from time to time if he even likes me. I mean more than just the sex....(that I probably will end up giving him)



Im so weak!



&& like 2 weeks ago i was suppose to like hang out with Eric at his house...but i went to a wack ass party instead...&& was pissed for like a week...didnt eat or sleep && almost passed out at Wal Mart.



Antony told me that i was inlove with Eric!! like How pysic!!!!!







ok i was like totally paranoid!!

like yesterday I kept itching (yea action parts)

Im like OMG!! I havent had sex...not even oral or anything its been like a year since any constact!!

So I start looking up like symptooms && stuff...thought it was Trich...

I was about to cry lol!

But found it it was just a side affect from my meds!

So not cool!!!!



thats why

READERS ARE LEADERS!!!



:)

Where am I??

I don't even know where to start.....

Its been a while since i posted something....

Maybe I got to caught up into my You Tube blog....

Ok its this guy..I've been "talking" to for like 3 or 4 weeks now...&& he's like SUPER cool.
He always say I'm to good to be true...but he's to good to be true.
&& I'm really starting to like him...but i am to good to be true bcus guess what

HE'S TREYS FRIEND!

:(
OK i like officially hate myself now...i hope Trey gets like so high he completely COMPLETELY forgets about me...

just my luck right *tear*

oh yea and some guy that dresses like Superman from time to time likes me! lol
SUPERMAN???? hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

oh yea I cut Anthony off completely...&& it feels soooooo GOOD!

Penny. FACEBOOK: JADEN

Ok its this guy named Jaden or JD that I use to like in high school. I never told him tho. And I use to date his friend but that's after we graduated.

When I'm bored I tend to start conversations with this guys and flirt alot. But flirt that's it. I never intend for anything to actually happen.

I wouldn't mind hooking up with JD but I don't want to be another notch on his belt. Hes a slut lol

Well on facebook I wrote happy birthday on his wall and he took it upon himself to send me a message.

Here's our convo:

Jaden
8:01pm September 15th
Thank u! What u got 4 me? Lol!
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke
1:33am September 16th
lolits nothing i can get youyou got everything dont you


Jaden
1:47am September 16th
I aint got u
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke
1:57am September 16th
yea i kno..maybe one day you a have me


Jaden

1:58am September 16th
I cant wait to one day
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke

2:00am September 16th
i cant wait either


Jaden
2:01am September 16th
So what dat mean
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke

2:04am September 16th
that just means hopefully one day we can kick and if not then we just don't


Jaden

2:07am September 16th
Naw it aint no if we dont we dont! We is!
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke
2:08am September 16th
lol yea it sounds good


Jaden

2:09am September 16th
Im 4real!
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke
2:12am September 16th
iight then...i believe you


Jaden
2:12am September 16th
When u free
Sent via Facebook Mobile

Brooke
2:15am September 16th
naw when you free?? but it really depends on if i gotta work or not


Jaden

2:16am September 16th
Im free now whatup
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke

2:21am September 16th
naw not tonight..its been a long day


Jaden

2:22am September 16th
Yeah i guess
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke

2:26am September 16th
sooo wat u doing for your birthday


Jaden

2:28am September 16th
I was tryna do u! Lol
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Brooke

2:32am September 16th
LOL..sorry =(


Brooke
2:37am September 16th
i a make it up to youbut im bout to go to sleep


Jaden
2:38am September 16th
Iight goodnite
Sent via Facebook Mobile


Jaden

Today at 6:18am
I aint got u
Sent via Facebook Mobile

I shoulda hooked up with him!!!!

LOL

Just kiddin ;)

Well...

I talked to Anthony yesterday for the first time in like a month. He asked me if I missed him. I said "Should I?"

I mean really. How could I miss him.

Oh yeah. and Vick is such a loser.

I'm doing new things in my life. Trying to introduce new thing into my life. Meaning OUT WITH THE OLD. like some of my friends.

My friend Brittany is a liar and a fake. I just found that out. I hate liars with a passion so I don't associate with them. Now I rarely talk to her. I don't trust her and never will. She is only a wanna be and a fit in and that's the worse. Soooo shes dead to me.

OH YEA. I dyed my hair!

Feels Like Forever

I haven't posted anything in a while. Much hasn't really been going on.
Anthony called me like 2 days ago
I didnt answer

Im sooooo done with him

now I'm just looking for someone to love me.

its this guy that lives around my house that I like but theres only one problem
he lives around my house

I got a job!! :)
yay!



ummmmmmm....

my lifes pretty boring right now

but my friends got alot of drama going on

well Ciara
shes dating this younger guy.
she already hooked up with him.
now some girl is saying hes her boyfriend

Brittany
is going through some major love triangle
he likes this guy that her friend likes but brittany made out with the guy at her friends party
now she hates her
and she made out with another guy her friend likes but he was origanlly just both of their friend

yea i kno...i dont get it either


i wonder wat erics doing right now
i heard him and his girlfriend are back together

i know this may sound evil but even tho i didnt break them up on purpose
i wish they would break up
i wish that was enough to make them never talk to each other again
i want him all to myself and i cant have him if they broke up or not but i just dont want him with her
is that bad?
i wish he wasnt so soft and didnt let her run all over him
shes just a peasent and im the motherfucking princess!!
lol

Dirty Rumors

Every time I think its over something new comes up

Now

Anthony this is what Anthony told me last night

"Brooke you know Eric looking for you," he laughs.
"Yeah he looking for you too," I said pissed.

"Naw, naw for real. I was with the guys today. They crazy. You 'posed to had fucked Eric," Now I was just shocked.

"WHAT?!"

"Yeah, you 'posed to had fucked Eric and Happy," I couldn't believe my ears.

"yea he looking for you. He said he need to talk to you."

How did this manage to happen. I bet it was all Anthony's doing because Eric would never spread a rumor like this. For me and him not to even talk to each other we get into a lot of drama together. Its almost like we might as well mess around since that is what is being said.

AMAZING

My Decision!

Ok

-I decided to not take Anthony serious anymore.

-He texted Ciara saying you never have time for me Like WHAT THE FUCK!

-He really needs to get it together.

-So I'm not going to worry about disrespecting him by being we other guys {his friends for example}

-I'm learning to let alot of things go and to not settle for less

-So losers don't even try

-Anthony just called me twice. I didn't answer

-I cant talk to him everyday

plus when I'm mad at him and I talk to him I seem to forget that I was even mad.

-He's no good for me.

My cousin who betrayed me

Ok I have a cousin who betrayed me now the whole family disowned her {can you say MAFIA she's lucky shes still alive..lucky this is not the Sopranos LOL}

Well Everything I like she likes because shes a follower.

So its this guy that's hot. She likes him only because I do.

I seek revenge yes...

so just wait to she see me riding around with him in his car! YAY!

I'm Like Hot Chick that you can't even touch!!

Uffie so Cool

I'm a movie Junkie!!

Well Today I Watched

Mr. and Mrs. Smith {my fav!!}

I think I love my wife {So funny!}

Black Snake Moan {GREAT!}

Roll Bounce {Bow wow is sooo HOT!}

Learned from the Big Screen

"You lose money chasing women but to never lose women chasing money" Just a quote that I remembered for I think I Love my Wife. This movie helped me understand to stop looking for all the flaws in a relationship and be happy with what's there. Everything is not what it seems. You may be with your boyfriend and meet another guy that's just HOT but is he really worth losing someone you shared almost everything with???

Black Snake Moan was a very interesting movie. Its kind of funny because even though I'm a virgin I think that I'm going to be a sex addict and that's like my biggest fear! Just remember take control because you're the only one that's in control of yourself.

Call me crazy but I've always wanted to have a huge fight with my boyfriend like in Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Wouldn't that be hot? Ok I know I'm not like the only one who feels this way. This movie is so hot. Maybe because Angie {that's what I call her} and Brad are like the sexiest people in HollyHell {that's what I call it}. I'm like Angie's biggest fan and honestly I get some of my swag {personality or COOLness} from her. This movie is clearly the best. Who wouldn't want to be a hot assassin and fight off bad guys with a sexy guy like Brad Pitt on your side. Next relationship I'm in has to be kick ass like this one! Bonnie and Clyde or Mr. and Mrs. Smith either way love is war and I got a few ex's who ass I wanna kick just like in this movie. Just imagine the sex after a fight like that. Tantalizing.

I simply enjoy this fun film. It just makes me want to put on some roller skates and get on the floor even though I might fall flat on my butt. Bow wow did good. I really think in Roll Bounce his performance was at its best. I love this movie plus I met like half the cast, well the guys at least, and I actually dated one of the guys. Bet you a never guess who?? {HAHA} I'll never tell!

by the way Anthony just called like 10 times

JERK!

Update!!

OK
Remember the crazii night and Anthony's ex-girlfriend??
well she busted his car windows out that same night. So now he's like missing all of his windows
GREAT!

I wanna kick her ass but I'm not going to feed into that.
Well me and Anthony is talking again!!
GREAT!!

I went outside with Happy last night. I love that guy. He's such a bad guy lol.
Either he doesn't know about what happened between me, Anthony and Eric or he's just playing it off real good because they all live in this neighborhood and they are all friends. {that sucks!}

Oh yea I'm really changing my name.

GUESS WHAT HAPPENED?!

Well I went to the movies to see Rush Hour 3 so my phone was on silent.
I saw I had 4 missed calls all from a private caller.
I instantly thought KEISHA!
but it was a girl and this is what she said

"Bitch I found your number in my mans phone, he got all type of stuff dumb bitch he got aids and you gone die too hoe"

Well luckly I'm a VIRGIN.
but like who calls a random girl in her boyfriends phone and says he has aids and why is she even with him???

so not cool

To top it off she didnt leave her name or his
Like WTF

he could be anybody and so could I

it didnt sound like Keisha

I laughed at the whole situtaion because I have so much drama going on at once right now and its crazii.

I really wanna know who the guy is so I can know NOT to hook up with him.

This is just all to much.

And it could be anybody. A guy I never talked to that had my number for years. I told Happy I told Anthony... I dont think its them anyways but I guess i'll find out

Love is a Losing Game

I woke up yesterday morning with lots of missed calls and voicemails. I talked to Anthony he wanted to know if it was really over. Deep down inside I didnt want to let him go. I love him too much but I know that if I stick around the drama is only gonna get worst. He told me that he couldnt lose me. He said he just couldnt take that lost.

He kept asking me "is this the end, so its over" and I never answered so he knew that I didnt want to end it. So he started asking me to make it official.

"Whats the difference from being girlfriend and boyfriend and what we have now," he asked me.
"Nothing," I answered him.
"Exactly," he responed back.

Then I dont know how we got to this point but he was like ok I cant keep doing this. Then he asked me if he could talk to my friend. MY FRIEND. the girl we were with last nigth, Ciara. He told me he liked her and if he could have sex with her and would every thing between me and him would be the same.

A while ago he asked me the same thing and I hooked them up but at the time it didnt matter that much to me then but it still did because how could he do something like that to me if he cared about me sooo much. I told him he could but it hurt me. He told me he need a girlfriend he's not gay and I guess since I wasnt trying to be it he was gone go to her.

He told me he would do anything for me and I know every word of that was true and I would do anything for him but as much as he loves me he destroys me at the same time. I never had heartbreak the way I have it now almost to the point where I want to call him and say lets be together. I thought I had never been inlove but now I know I've been inlove the whole time. I never felt heart ach before and now I feel it for someone that I thought was really nothing to me.

As much as it hurts I gotta let it go. Its eating me up inside that he would even do that to ME. I know I'm wrong too but just like I asked him how would he feel if I hooked up with one of his friends. I'm almost to the point where I just want to delete all the number out of my phone and start new. Its almost impossible for me not to talk to him or have him in my life because he is a big part of me. Hopefully just like all the other times we end up friends again because I love him soo much.

What a night

Ok
I was with Anthony last night and he really pissed me off. I really care about him and I know he a do ANYTHING for me but I just can't commit. He wants a relationship but I'm just not sure if I can give him that.

Last night was soooo crazy. First him and his friend came and got me and we went and pick up my friend. Its like she has a super guard up. She don't even wanna talk to new guys. He was just asking for her name and stuff and she wouldn't even took at him. so we took her back home after they cussed her out and went and got my other friend.

We rode around went and bought something to drink.

At the liquor store..
Anthony's friend Benny went and bought us something to drink. So we pull up in this lot and we all just got drunk... Anthony threw the bottle out his sunroof and broke his back window out.. Can you say DRUNK. We had to go to the gas station and vacuum all the glass out.

Now we riding around without a back window.
I'm driving and Anthony's ex-girlfriend pull up on the side of use and says "HEY BOO," to him like I'm supposed to be mad. But what pissed me off is that she called his phone, left 3 voice mails saying that I'm a fourth grader..GREAT!
I was ready to fight

We go back to the liquor store and see his friends Eric and Isiah.
I got mad because he told Eric that I had been looking for him all day. I had been asking about him. I was pissed. Plus he called me a bird! great!

We leave them me and Anthony are still arguing. My friend is driving his car now. i go home.

He called my phone at least 30 times last night or more. Left 6 voice mails.

He told me he really wanna be with me, he loves me, and all this stuff. Im thinking to myself I can not forgive him this time but its like im just to attached to him.

so i put my phone on silent and woke up with missed calls and voicemails. He wanted to know if I was serious about what I had said the other night. I told him we were over and I wasnt gonna talk to him anymore..I'm too attached!