14!

Last Blog it was 10 guys.....now its like 14!!!!! LOL

Watever...its fun! I love action and attention! :)

IMMA STAR!!!

But Prince did get mad at me tho....and Anthony called me private and left a voicemail like "Brooke WHAT YOU ON HAHA"

I wish I would have answered bcus believe it or not I'm starting to MISS HIM!!!

I'm going to call Happy tomorrow!!

Nill

Well I'm starting to hate myself for hooking up with Eric because I was just looking at his picture on Facebook and realized he's not that hot at all. What ever.. I live with no regrets.

But now I'm feeling like there's no one out there for me. I may never fall in love because I don't like nobody. It a be things that I like about them but I never like them completely.

GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean i'm not in a rush to settle down. I'm not that type but shit!!! Where are the good guys. The Fun guys. The Hot guys. There's none!

or maybe itz just one....& i can't find him.

Now I'm like dating 10 guys at once. Plus I got a boyfriend!

Chain Reaction

There are alot of new guys in my life right now..

I feel bad for my boyfriend. Well it's this guy i meet named Von and I like him alot already (this never happens). I went to his house twice. He's like super cool and I made out with him. Yeah major. but yesterday when i was at his house I had no way to get home so Prince had to come and get me. I told him I was at my cousin's house. I don't think he believed me but he really had no choice. Von got a little jealous. He was like "you gone have fun tonight" I mean what other way was I suppose to get home. I just need for him to understand what type of girl I am. Or maybe I'm not that different from all the other females. I don't want to cheat but its hard for me not to. I'm not the settle down type and Prince is really starting to bore me. Tho i like him alot he irritates me from time to time. I like action, romance, passion, drama. I'm a fucking actress from Christ sake!!! I need excitement. He wanna come over today and I think its because he wants to "hook up" soooo not gonna happen. I really don't want to have sex with him.

Oh and I told Von that I only been with one person......i shoulda kept quite.

What do i wanna say??

I'm about to write a poem...haven't don't that in a while


ummmmmmmm....

its almost summer....hope its a good one.

did i tell you that i thought i was pregnant...LMAO

can money buy happiness???

well I'm about to find out...because i think it does ^^



i want to become a boxer...
well not really i cant stand being hit.
but i want to hit somebody...
because im angry



my mom thinks i'm crazy because i pop myself (with rubber bands)
that's just to calm me down when im upset..

im stressed!

Guess Who I saw yesterday...!

Happy!

NO! Eric duh!

Well I was walking to the store down the street. There was a whole lot of guys like hanging out. I wasn't sure if he was over there with them because I didn't want to look over there.

So anyways on my way out the store I rerouted because I looked a mess and there was a lose dog roaming the streets.

So anyways I was walking down the block and saw him leaving out of him grandmothers house. I'm like OMG! NO!...so i like put my hood on so he wouldn't see me.

He noticed it was me and then went back into the house. LMAO!

Like WTF.... how r we BOTH hiding from each other.

We might as well face it. I mean he lives like on the same block that I do. We hang with some of the same people. We hang out at the same places.

soooooo yea we should just get over it. or he should get over it at least cus i'm over it.

He really needs to grow up.

Like really be a man PLZ!

yep. yep. yep. :)

This is where I want to be.

All Well....(Why Not!)

Well Prince gave me the best Valentines Day ever!!!.............

but i'm a bad person because i still want ERIC!

but now I got like a total different look on the whole thing.

Like i just want him for his tay! yep.

so should i call or text???

imma just call....im scared....sick....this is great.

i wish i could just like run into him...hmmmm

i need a miracle!!!

like seriously!

I've been thinking.....

Prince is really cool....but I dont know

he's ready to like go all the way..&& i so do not

want him to be my first....well my one and a half! (ha)

time for tears!

...we only live once so WHY NOT

that's my new little phrase to live by

why not.

like why shouldn't I love who I wanna love

Why not..

Cry out loud

Why not...

wear my heart on my sleeve

Why not...

tell him how I feel

why not..

smile :)

why not...

call him

why not...

sing LOUDLY

why not...

dress how I wanna!

why not...

ERIC HERE I COME!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

DONT FEAR ME!!

Babble Jabble!

OOOOOOOOOOOOkkkkkkk....
Why did Eric tell Anthony I texted him back that night.
I only asked him if he called me...and he said yea he wanted to see if I was coming outside

Now Anthony hates me...be I honestly dont car as much bcus he always brings pettyness into my life.
Now i'm pissed at Eric....Why brag about it???

I really wish they would all just grow up && live their live outside of their phonebook!

kudos to Whitney!

So now its like...WHATEVER!

I cant catch a break really....so now if I do like hangout with Eric...im gonna make him feel guilty for everything... :)

THAT GOOD!

ok i started to get REAALLLLY irrataed with Prince, even before Anthony filled my head up with all his crazy talk. I mean he was right though...saying that Prince was gonna start pressuring me to have sex with him but i dont know. I think its the whole thing that I dont wanna lose my virginity to him. So I stop talking to him as much but I miss him now.



Sooooo Eric and Happy is like competing now to like be with me. Well at least hook up.

As much as I like Eric...Love Eric...I feel bad really. bcus he only wants to hook up && i want more.



He even called me last night to see if I was coming out!! AHHH! OHH EMMM GEEE!

Buts its making me think differently of him. He broke up with his girl AGAIN last night. but anywayz....



Lester, some fat guy told Happy and Eric that i was having sex so Happy was telling Eric about it. Happy was saying like I been dating her for almost 2 years, she need to stop playing and hook up. But the whole time Eric was thinking in his mind that he cant go and he gotta hook up with me first! DRAMATIC! Kay!



What is a girl suppose to do. I'm like inlove with Eric && i wonder from time to time if he even likes me. I mean more than just the sex....(that I probably will end up giving him)



Im so weak!



&& like 2 weeks ago i was suppose to like hang out with Eric at his house...but i went to a wack ass party instead...&& was pissed for like a week...didnt eat or sleep && almost passed out at Wal Mart.



Antony told me that i was inlove with Eric!! like How pysic!!!!!







ok i was like totally paranoid!!

like yesterday I kept itching (yea action parts)

Im like OMG!! I havent had sex...not even oral or anything its been like a year since any constact!!

So I start looking up like symptooms && stuff...thought it was Trich...

I was about to cry lol!

But found it it was just a side affect from my meds!

So not cool!!!!



thats why

READERS ARE LEADERS!!!



:)

NEW

Since I just got a new layout I figured I would post something new!!






I'm doing all NEW things with my life.



You only life once && they say the best things in life are free.





I'm about to get myself together.



I'm thinking about becoming a vegan....(i'm not sure how thats gonna work out but hell it's worth a shot)















>>>>>>>>>>>> Isn't he HOT!! All those tats. I like his music too. Its cool and NEW to me. Look him up on Myspace his name is TYGA..Sexy riiii..yea I kno ;=)














I'm allergic to wheat.....HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO SURVIVE????








I guess I'll starve myself..





Speaking of starving.....


I'm 5'7 127 pounds (i use to be 118 like 2 months ago)


I like I'm FAT..I am really..127=HUGE!


now do i have a eating disorder???











I mean I eat..I just don't want to. or if I'm out with friends I don't eat.


I'm allergic to wheat anyways soooo that might help if I don't eat as much seeing that everything I eat is BREADED =(

LYRICS TO L.L.L {Listen. Love. Learn}

Good Life Kanye West

[Kanye West]

Like we always do at this timeI go for mine

I got to shine

Now throw your hands up in the skyI g-go for mine,

I got to shine

Now throw your hands up in the sky

Welcome to the good life

Where nigga's that sell D

Won't even get pulled over in they new V

The good life, let's go on a living' spree

Shit they say the best things in life are free

The good life, it feel like Atlanta

It feel like L.A., it feel like Miami

It feel like N.Y., summertime Chi, ahh

(Now throw your hands up in the sky)

So I roll through good

Y'all pop the trunk, I pop the hood, Ferrari

And she got the goods

And she got that ass, I got to look, sorry

Yo it's got to be cause I'm seasoned

Haters give me them salty looks, Lowry's

50 told me go 'head switch the style up

And if they hate then let 'em hateAnd watch the money pile up, the good life

I'm Not Emo...I Promise

HELLO STRANGER THAT READS THIS,

I'm Brooke. I'm 19. I live in the city but it feels like the contry sometimes. I love love. I'm single. I'm addicted to music. I don't feel real good about myself right now. Its time for a change. I'm ready for new life or my real life to start.......but meanwhile my old life still exists and so does the people that live in it with me.

I saw Eric's car today...yeah just his car. I was on my way home and I had to drive past his house. Looks like he was having a party. It was people everywhere. I didnt look at him. My sister said she saw him but I couldnt look at him. I hid. I don't want him to see me.

Evan- I saw him too.

Vegan.....should I??