GOODBYE 08

08 WAS A GOOD YEAR FOR ME

+I LOST MY VIRGINITY TO SOMEONE I WAS IN LOVE WITH...WHO LATER TURNED OUT TO BE A JERK

+ I LOVE AND LOST

+MADE NEW FRIENDS..THAT I LOVE AND CHERISH

dont feel right

i feel as tho its coming to an end

I just read a post from oct 28 saying i had plans on hooking up with him on Halloween
& i did!!!

lol!
-im such a
-----dork

opps i did it again

Yes I hooked up wit Eric last night after a Halloween party
i texted him (lyrics) and from there...yea u already know
so he picked me up from in front of my house...im friend really wanted to see who he was
im like noooooo!!
so we went to his house....talked
watched videos
oh i still had on my costume
had 4 minute sex
like wat wat
he claimed that it felt soooooo good and sooooooo tight that he came super fast
I really couldnt believe it
but im like duh ur the only one thats been in it!!!!
but i didnt say that exactly
he was like "its like u aint done nothing...blah blah blah"
im like "yea i really havent"
I SHOULDA JUST SAID THE SHIT...LIKE LOOK U R THE ONLY ONE!!!!!!
I think he knows now tho
he should
i got to his house at like 310 didnt leave to after 5

he was like really into it tho....i think it was the coustume....yea like totally the coustume.
i was really feining and when he came that fast im like NOOOOO HOLD IT! STOP!!

there wont be a next time tho
I think im finally over him
thank ya jesus!

Now What?

OK Eric!
Yes him again!

I talked to Anthony last night and Eric was brought up
I said before we hooked up Eric was going around saying that I was supposed to be in love with him....like what???? What would make him think that shit?????
I swear i never did anything to even show how I felt for him.
&& if he does think that then he really must not care about me at all because he went around spreading the word

but I'm finally over him
I had plans on hooking up with him for one last time on Halloween but I guess I wont do that anymore.
Tho I really really want to
but I just gotta move on
Imma still fuck him up tho

I can't lie. I'm InLove with you

Yall know who im talking about Eric of course

I talked to him the other day
he called me at 11:50 pm
we talked for an hour 14 minutes and 46 seconds

Im a mess right?
I mean I dont understand what makes me so interested in this guy. Well he claims the guys around here who I thought were his friends dont like him very much. Thats why the rumor was going around. But I know thats now all true. Its because he couldnt keep shut up about it. He just had to go and brag.

I had seen him earlier that morning when I was on my way to work. He tried to run me over. I told him I couldnt stand him and I had alot to say but when he called I couldnt say nothing. I'm a sucker. plus my dad was in the next room so............

I really want to tell him tho. Tell him how I feel that he only cared about his own feelings
He never thought about how all this would affect me but telling everybody
how he is the ONLY person I have ever been with
& why I did hook up with him

Just to let ya know.....It a probably be happening again.
I dont try to make the same mistake twice but I want it.
of course im not going to anyone else but him
maybe next week sometime.
Can't wait! lol

Quiz

When you read this you should start from the beginning or you will never know what the fuck im talking about

I need a boyfriend somebody i can love, care about and hold in my arms.
I just need a dream
please.

Where have I been?
School.
Its very stressfull too

Eric
Come on you know you wanna know
He's really pissing me off!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKER

I have tons of homework
but im blogging

Anthony
Still my friend

Happy
Happy belated Birthday

Prince
Where the fuck are you
Can you buy me something?? :_)

I need a new life.
Where did mines go?

Friends wouldnt hurt either